to be, or maybe

there's something about me that I have been scared of. It has been a while since I have come to the realization, but I have never wholly acknowledged it. But I think it is about time that I do.

In short, I feel that I argue for argument's sake. If someone claims that Canadian homeless people deserve to be homeless, because they have the resources to not be so, then I will argue that that is not the case; although, Canada works as a welfare system, the bureaucracy and technicalities can make it impossible for a homeless individual to 'upgrade their status'. Now, if a person were to argue that welfare policies should be more lenient I would think, if not mention, that there are tonnes of people who do not deserve welfare subsidies because they are fully capable of earning their own living, and I generally have a hate for charity (but that's a whole post on its own).

This applies to any and all issues; abortion, religious extremism, women's rights etc. I don't consider myself politically or morally confused, but I rarely find my self agreeing with anyone, or anything (wholly). I am secure enough to acknowledge that I like controversy, but at the same time when I examine my stance on controversial issues it always falls in the middle. let's take abortion, since that seems to be everyone's favourite, I don't believe in it, but I also don't believe in it being a punishable crime. I think, that it is not a legislative matter, and should be upon the discretion of the individual and the facilitator. I guess that makes me ProChoice? but idk, I am not really.

I am aware that my opinions are a balance between Islamic rulings and 'democratic' values. So, I guess I can place some of the blame for this wishy-washy (pseudo) radicalism on my contradicting environments. And I don't mind standing on middle ground because most of the time when you pick a side you are ignoring some reality. But what I can't decipher is if I choose the middle ground because I want to 'play safe' or because I hate the polarization of issues, as the polarization lends itself to blanket statements and universal claims in a place where there is no room for that.

Maybe I am more concerned about making people think and see the 'other side' rather than forming opinions. Or maybe this is an inherent flaw of being 'leftist', without being radically leftist; but I can't really be sure I am that either. Maybe, I am just politically confused. I don't know, it's not really an insecurity, but maybe that is just because nobody points it out.

But this is something I wanted to address so I can have find more answers.

(Maybe I just haven't seen enough to make my own opinions)