my medical skills

My mother never fails to demonstrate quiet determination. Unknowingly, she is the constant corner stone of our family. So whenever she is faced with a circumstance which weakens her, it is mostly gone unnoticed because she internalizes it, not burdening us with an image of her strength faltering.

Recently she underwent a surgery. The procedure itself was not risky, but the surrounding circumstances and the actual health condition could potentially be worrisome. God willing, the results will be satisfying. The period before the surgery, didn't feel like anything out of the ordinary. Although we were all quietly worried, there wasn't much discussion. My mom seemed perfectly normal. When anyone asked her if she was scared or nervous, she replied nonchalantly that she hadn't even thought about it and she just wants to get it over with. She dispelled all of our worries before they were formulated, and instead of us comforting her it was her comforting us. The day of the surgery, when I came home she was sleeping, still drowsy from the anesthesia, but an hour later she was up and walking. And everything was back to normal. All in all, it felt like it didn't really happen.

So, when today she asked me if I could re-bandage the wound, after seeing the gash I felt so queasy. Generally I am not very easily grossed out, and am not squeamish when faced with blood or cuts. But it took me a few moments to prepare myself to look at the almost 2 and a half inch cut and I wondered how she could endure all this without a word, while all of us cry over a flu or headache.

when I grow up, I want to be like her.

(pray for her, and if you don't pray then will for her)

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